just now my bff, told me a joke cause i told him to faster tell me one if not i will start to cry there and then.
though its a lame joke, and he really did tried one after another to make me smile, so i laugh..
thanks ar.
didnt say what happened..
but what he said to me seems like he could sense a little, im always acting like i dont care, when deep down, im actually treasuring and caring soo much...


dont know where my brain go to lately..
i like totally stop thinking..
makes me want give up all that i have and run again to another place where no one knows me..
to a better place where i was smarter and start anew.
haiz.

miserable.

just now was dinner at bedok.
i was the only idiot eating 3/4 of the seafood thingy.
all dont want eat.
also i bought baju for twelvebucks. dont know if suit me or not, but just buy.
i wan eat chocolates...

came home then after trying my stuff, called my boo.
think we talk for very long ehh, in the middle we quarrel and then bad mood for awhile then talk again..
haiz.
i say different thing end up different thingy..
maybe im too childish for him luhh..
certain things i want block out, when i know certain things is like reality.
i was feeling what i shouldnt be feeling.. upset.
i also know im not great and all that..
he such a great guy, alot of girls sure want..
i know at some point i cant win...

arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!

just now my head still very blur and eyes still cloudy like on thurs..
so i eat the mentos which my baby won from the mentos machine..
cute right he..
we turn back just to play that machine that time and he won 4.. then i took 2.

haiz.

anyways, time to sleep ar..
dont want think anymore..
nitez.

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