just a random update.:

bad week last week.
think i am still recovering.
finding all sort of way to recover.
the feeling still sucks.
dont know how to go on.
erm, i cant go thru the same thing i go thru last time.
i swear i will just die. so drama arrrr.
but its true.
being misjudged etc.
it aint like that, if u let me explain myself.
but i dont know about life anymore, makes me sad to think of people even thinking of wanting to give up on me.
since young till now.
fated i supposed.
am i that difficult to handle.
used to have so many sides, and whenever i want, i choose.
but not anymore, i somehow became what i am today.
days goes by, it is still hard to show certain feelings.
still afraid to go on.
i am just hoping things get better.
because i am running out of patience myself, and i hope i dont be the first to give up on myself.

but if things were to get better, i do wonder if u will still be there.
or will u just go away..

maybe i should just lead a life of my own.
for now,i shouldnt think too much.

friday,sat, sun went out.
i think tomorrow i be out again.
just need to chill a little.

to end this post,
i want type about this particular time in school way back in the days.
used to have this friend, she is my partner in crime. still is.
she used to sit beside me in class.

we used to have a blast all the time.
one day, during physics, she got damn bored, so she went on blabberly to me about some gossip.
and the physics teacher saw, got angry and started yelling at us for talking during class.
think we had some punishment by our angry teacher for not paying attention, or something like that.
and my friend who is waayyyyy crazier than me, said to our teacher,
"cher, be easy, dont make decision when ur mad"
and straight away i started laughing....
it was our inside joke on some song we loved.
but our teacher was damn funny, she yelled back and said,
"what be easy, dont make decision when im mad. I AM NOT MAD"
when she was shouting like nobody business.
and by now we were laughing our ass off when our teacher was still yelling at us, with classmates especially our closest ones wondering what the hell is wrong with us two.
we tested on our angry people but not teachers. i mean who would right.
it was the first and last yet damn memorable.
putting us together sometimes do bring out fun things and sometimes trouble..
remembering all this shit during my days as a student, i couldnt stop laughing yesterday.
life was fun.

lmao.

good nitez.

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