i have been really down with my life. i dont know how long it takes to save up, do things i want. i dont even know if i can ever achieve anything ever. and confusion of the mind.. i cant make up my mind at all...


im really so sad.
all he think of is his work.
ytd, he got really soo sensitive, and doesnt even know the full story to what i feel. and just anyhow voice his opinion. i really love him, so crazy for him..

haiz. but.. now...
i really lose hope. i put in soo much effort in this relationship, i do hope for this to work out, but right now, all i can say i losing all my hope, and that im tired of putting in effort.
i am tired of everything.
i think i just want be alone.

turning insomnia again. i sleep after 2am each day.. wake up 6.30 each day. my body ache like siao.

before things started, i told myself i give myself 4month to rebuild myself, find peace, know my wants, find happiness..
unfortunately 4months has past me by.. soo much quicker than expected
and maybe all i want is a long holiday at somewhere and hope for no disturbance, no stress and no people to hurt me..
i keep on having to wait on people. and the wait is always so long. how long can one wait. it kills to wait.

dont they know im here suffering too.

it kills deep down. will people just care for my feelings also.
one day,
1 week will go to 2.
2 weeks goes to 3.
lets just end all of this. cause in the end, everything will be like the past.
disappearing.

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helpless came by the office just now, with big2 mickey mouse bolster, i told her to wear flowery shirt and hug it like kid wear PJ holding pillow but she refused. lol.
then we bully stunned distract her, and hide the plastic bag make her carry the bolster like that back to her home.


helpless came and she stayed until our knock off time.
oh farewell to all. and good luck.
random slacking pics at pantry near backend..
enjoy my stupid and abt to cry face.


left to right: same2, stunned and helpless.

frenz forever.
gonna miss everyone.
take care.

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