so down right now.

as i closed the main door behind me, i just broke down.

torn

i ask him go out with me cause its been so long since i went out till late and just feel like enjoying the night.

it just sadden me to have him keep talking about home.

coz i clearly ask him if he was tired. coz i wanted to hang out till late. i feel like a fool right now.

to make things worst, i havent seen him for a week.

maybe all of this i just dont want it anymore already.

coz i m sick of having to wait for the guy all the time. i never once ask anything unless i needed it.

i know by saying this will hurt others, but i m too hurt myself.

i know he calls me everyday, then if its soo good and better than nothing, then lets just stick to u call me i call u relationship.

but just now, all i want is some companion, im not asking for everyday k, and its so rare to have me ask ppl ard me out, but i guess i am just someone who ppl used to get companion, i cant have their company.

to you, certain things may look stupid and dumb abt me, but there's too much to tell.

as i walk away, how i wish u will just pull me and hold me, but i guess u aint that guy, u just different. u listen too well.

u know me too well to bother.

im so tired right now. the phase which i have been thru before, but im trying not to let it get me.

just one night, keeping me company, i guess if its too hard, then im sorry and have to thank u for going out still.

let i say before, there's too much to tell..

but.. whatever.

im sorry for the argument in the afternoon and being stupid juz now.

from today, i shall just dont bother asking anything from u.

of course i will feel better. even if i dont, how will u know?

i just dont need someone to talk to, i just need someone to just stay by my side at some point.


well, maybe i dont show emotions so people dont care.

life sucks.

haiz.

my mistake. not yours, boo. miss you.

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