I feeling abit weird today and yesterday.

Seeing someone beside me send chill to my spines. I really don’t know what to feel or say. U know, all this time, I care for u, I endured u, let u do whatever to me, hurt me physically I don’t care at all. But as we grow up, u grew more evil inside, ur heart has so many hates. I know for sure, it wasn’t ur first time being like this. But to what makes me don’t understand is, I am so close to u.

I tell myself, both parties also wrong. Both person I trust a lot, and at times like this, when people makes me choose, or decide, I can go mad. But I am a lot stronger, I can laugh it off when I am down, I no longer sulked at much; or try avoiding eye contact with people surrounding me. But I hate to find out things from behind. Cause I had it.

I love him, I love her too. I trust him, I trust her too.

And perhaps to judge someone by his past, it’s wrong. She say see as if he dare deny all that. But when I saw the whole thing, I should have asked myself, everyone has their private past. I can’t deny if I wasn’t like that either. But sometimes, guys, they tend to make girls misunderstood their words, especially when they are too nice to us. This for sure, is real. I have seen plenty of cases. Even when it comes to guys – some girls are too nice to them, they misunderstand.

Just want to let u know, when a guy is super nice to u, ask urself these important reality question
“what makes u knows u are so fucking special to him?”
“What makes u think he is only being nice and friendly towards u, there confirm be other gals he doing the same to”

Just cause u are close to someone of different gender doesn’t means u should fall in love with him/her.

*sarcasm* Omg… then for my case, I fell in love the wrong person, if that’s what its supposed to mean. =.=ll

Face it will u, thanks to u, I might have lost someone I really cared about, u really take my weakness to aim me back, I am really very disappointed, u know I cant make decision, u know I act on impulse, and god know, that u,urself know I won’t leave u alone. I feel myself when I am with him, I used to feel ur pain inside, but now no, I used to care how stupid or blur u feel, now I don’t.

Lastly, dada I am sorry for being so stupid and not asking u first. Acted so strongly when I chose to leave.
Make u miss one step when u pray, make u can’t eat ur bryani during ur lunch period, make u cant concentrate and also, make u worry,also make u miss ur high class dinner and missing out from eating ur raw oyster(if im not wrong its oysters), also forgotting it was ur prayer time, if I knew I would have not done so. I feel like a sinner right now.
My hand shivers as I type the word break up on my phone, its like I am floating and to myself I kept asking, what happened, am I dreaming..

Like my “daughter” used to say

“Mum, u so young, experiences all this kind of complicated stuffs already.”

I guess she is right.

I shall now put a stand in this relationship; nothing will break up apart or shall come between us both. If there is any doubt, we shall ask each other first before acting, I think this goes for me n I have learn my lesson.

We both has our judgement on our own people. So don’t put any judgment on urself before asking. Of course, at times u feel comfy with ur own skin. I say at times. Not most of the times arr..

About u going to hell, I shall forgive u still; I take it as though u are bored with ur life.

I guess like u say it will create chaos, it did. So now what?

Lastly telling a friend he is depressed and loving his ex got no wrong la. =.=ll
U don’t love ur ex isit. FUCK sia.

We both had issues when we got together ar. And he wasn’t the only one. He did told me about his life back then, but I just forgot

I am so foolish and stupid at the same time.

If it make u and some other people happy hearing this, yes we broke up.

zzz

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