happy note:
the last 2 days, me and dear ate lots of sushi, and i was damn curious what wasabi taste like, and so i tasted it. the first thing when u try to shallow, it BURNT IN YOUR MOUTH making you UNABLE TO THINK for awhile, after that it simmers down and give out a FUCKING HORRIBLE PUNGENT-LIKE taste.
i was like speechless.
we ate too much sushi, and didnt feel like eat sushi for a VERY LONG LONG TIME. and i had fun playing and talking. thanks dar :)

and today, thanks dear for listening to my babbles. i <3 you many2. somehow, you are someone that i can rely on, and always supportive of me in times of need. without you, probably my life is never the same. and with you, i can feel a sense of joy at least. i got more to say luh, but i wont put it here.
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anger mode on:

im really down.

why do people here have to hurt my feelings like that?

you know the reason i talk to you was to ask for your help, just a tiny favour, i didnt ask you for the world did i? i begged and begged. throwing my pride which i have kept for 1 whole month, trying not to talk to you and ignoring you. but despite all the begging, i was just another stupid and pathetic beggar who always come to you for help isnt it?

you only saw me as someone who use up all your money. am i really someone like that in your eyes?

you once say while i was asleep to someone saying indirectly, "dont invite her, you just need to waste your money on her only"

am i really like that to you?

i can swear i didnt talk to you just cause you got your pay already. i can swear on that.

i was really helpless. so i seek and begged for your help.

why cant you just give in to me?

you really hurt my feelings alot.

i endure you for the 19 + years of my life.

all the years you torture me, but i just give in to you.

i apologize again and again, because i dont want live with someone and hold grudges.

can you even feel my hurt each time ?

i follow you, help you ask for whatever stuffs you need each time we need go out. is that really something money can even buy?

are you really sacrificng me away for good already, just cause you are well off now.

are you sure you wont regret this ever?

cause if you are sure, then tell me to my face, that you no longer want me inside your life story, cause i will give up trying to make you talk to me.

and how ironic, you saw me helpless and disappointed but you can still sleep peaceful after that.

it was never my fault in the first place, why are you so cruel to me?

do you all really hate me to push me away like that?

sacrificing things like they no longer mean anything to you?

are these people really very heartless?

cause why does it happen to me..

and please dont say i dont respect you all, because if i dont, i be cursing you all this while..

im a good person by start. but if you really want me to turn to ungrateful bitch to you, then maybe i can make your dream come true.

can life be better for me already...

this is my home.. can things get better.

i dont know how to live my life, if this is the environment im living in.

everyone can blow up.. just cause i never say anything doesnt means, im afraid.

i was brought up never to talk back to elders.

then now, i really think, screw you elders. fuck you all for thinking you are always right. shoot your trap like you are always right.

haiz.

LASTLY:
few important facts about me if you all dont know, and if you want know me or insist of being my friend still, you better think twice yar:

i hang out with bad company.
i eat alot of maggi and im losing alot of hair. i might be bald soon ya..
i disrespect my parents.
i am disobedient.
i am super rude.
i am money face who goes after people money.
i like to sleep only.
i like to go out only, i cant sit at home.
i ALWAYS prioritize others BUT NEVER MY FAMILY.
I AM THE MOST RUDEST PERSON CAUSE I NEVER ANSWER MY PHONE.

:)

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