im shivering endlessly now.

just now i never felt so scared my whole life. i am still shivering and my dear didnt picked up his phone, right now im still soo scared. WHY ME.

i really had a bad day today, just a fucking bad day.

i should have gone down to my dear work place, despite been moodless. well, even if cant meet, i can still wonder around by myself. instead of meeting with a bad encounter.

im sorry im useless, i wasnt strong enough. im so scared, i couldnt eat my dinner which i spend an hour thinking of what to buy.

i am in trauma.

im still shaking.

just why. why and why.

i really hate myself. for what have happened.

never felt like this. i hate it. i just hate it.

im a bitch. a stupid one.

i hate my life. i hate everything.

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.

i dont know what happened. i just dont. my mind is in twirl and is still is.

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